Psalm 119: 1
“You’re blessed when you stay on course, walking steadily in the direction and road revealed by God.”
Lately, I have wanted to shut everything down. It’s a regular occurrence don’t be alarmed. I overthink it all. My life, my writing and the paths I have chosen to walk. I wonder how much I have been doing to try and gain my own sense of self. This is a weird mix of living authentically but at the same time just wanting privacy and a lot less noise. And there is so much shame being perpetuated across the media waves lately. So many shoulds. So much anger. Most of it righteous, but the projection has been shutting people down rather than opening up the discussions that are so badly needed.
I have chosen this pathway but if I was really honest, it’s a sparse, rabbit trail of crumbs that asks me to carry on. Every time I decide to give up, an email lands in my inbox, with encouragement about my writing or I meet someone for the first time that has been impacted by the stories I have told.
This season in the world has really rocked me. With six months of my calendar wiped in one day and a new book release that has fallen flat into this bizarre time in the world, honestly, it all looks a little shallow on this side of a worldwide pandemic and racial inequity. Then I come across Psalm 119, it was written hundreds of years ago. It is an acrostic poem that explores the beauty of scripture and the rhythm of daily devotion. The first verse reminded me to go back to the beginning of this year and remember what I had promised myself.
Stay the course.
What does it mean for you to stay the course that God set for your year?
Verse two goes on to say “You’re blessed when you follow His direction.”
It doesn’t say you’re blessed when you have a job.
It doesn’t say you’re blessed when your book sales explode.
It doesn’t say you’re blessed when your house is perfect.
It doesn’t say you’re blessed when you have all the answers.
It says you’re blessed when you follow his ways.
The penultimate question is…
“What is the course that was set before me, that I am to walk towards?”
“How would he respond in the current climate?”
Across the next few months, each Monday I am going to write from a different verse from this long, enduring Psalm and walk on a pilgrimage of rhythm in reading the word of God as a form of meditation.
In the comments below tell me what course or decision you had made at the beginning of 2020 and needed to be reminded of?
The decision I made at the beginning of this year was to walk in abundance. To believe the very best in those closest to me, to look for abundance in my thought processes and collaboration. To have fun with my children rather than being so serious all the time. To look for God’s provision rather than the worlds. None of this has changed. However, every sentence above has been challenged.
No one knew what this year would end up looking like this. No one could have predicted what was to happen. However, God saw it and called us to walk steadfastly remembering the simple things that draw us once again back to the promises that He has already enacted in our lives.
My meditation this week is to steadily walk again in the course that was already set. No need to recreate everything. Just come back to the very simple things that draw me towards God once again. Reading, writing, slowing down, singing, laughing and remembering that amid it all, He ultimately is in control.
Psalm 119: 1
“You’re blessed when you stay on course, walking steadily in the direction and road revealed by God.”
Tell me your thoughts below.
