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vulnerability

Place: Milkd 

Poison: Long Black with hot water 

Favourite Things: Andrea in her pale blue scarf 

Creativity and Relationships to me are so similar. How hard is it to put your ideas out there, with the premise that someone may completely reject them? How hard is it to extend your heart to someone, with it shaking in your palm?  Does that mean we should never create? Does that mean we never should love? No. Does that mean that it is scary as hell? Does that mean that our heart quivers and our palms are sweating with anxiety? Yes. 

C.S. Lewis, one of my favourite authors puts it this way… ‘To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable…The only place outside of Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love…is Hell!’  Creativity and Love co-exist in the land of vulnerability.  Don’t live safe; it only leads to a very boring place. 

Scared 

A

PS- Today is the first day of spring, one day closer to summer. Bring it on! (I love it)  

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an unlived life

Place: Kym Rolle’s Palace 

Poison: Chardonnay and Cigar (only joking) 

Favourite Things: Oprah Magazine 

After a big day in the office, I have retired to kym’s house for a glass of wine and some idol action! 

ahhh, anyways my Oprah subscription arrived in perfect timing yesterday to inspire this tired creative soul. 

This poem stopped me in my tracks. 

I will not die an unlived life 

I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. 

I choose to inhabit my days, 

to allow my living to open me, 

to make me less afraid, more accessible 

to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, 

a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance, 

to live so that which came to me as a seed goes to the next as a blossom, 

and that which came to me as a blossom, goes on as fruit. (Dawna Markova) 

I love to live my life with a bigger perspective. I want to live with the understanding that ‘we were all destined to nourish and grow that which is given.’ I long to be someone who leaves an imprint where I have tramped, to care for and bring life to all parts of my world. 

I long to live without fear, nourishing the souls of all that come accross my path, not just some. 

I want to be more accessible as a person, so that I can live beyond myself. 

Despite the pain, to be discontent unless I am growing! 

Challenged… 

A

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chopping wood

Place: My Bedroom 

Poison: Water 

Favourite Thing: this room! 

Well the Mont Blanc catalogue gives us one more quote, which is from the pen of Sir Albert Einstein. Its great! 

‘Chopping wood is so popular because it is an activity in which you see the results immediately’ 

GOLD! 

How much do we as humans struggle with delayed gratification? How often do we stop creating, because it is tedious and time consuming? 

I am so guilty of this. Ask my mum. Sewing, I throw away the patterns and just cut it, how I think it should go. Cooking, no measurements lets just throw it all together. Pottery, can’t we bring it out of the kiln yet? Marriage, seriously are there any men out there? 

I think the best things in life do take time and patience. With our creativity, yes chopping wood may be satisfactory because the results are so immediate, however what about the patience it takes to carve a statue out of wood, whittling down a massive trunk to be a unique and foreboding work of art. 

What areas of creativity do you need to develop patience in? 

Mine? Most! 

Ahhhhhh, the pleasure and the pain of creativity. 

Squirming 

AÂ