I’m the kind of girl who walks into a large setting, a big party, a massive event and wishes I could be anywhere else but there. Funny thing is, most of my life I have organised events, parties and big things. It’s like I get overwhelmed and don’t know who to talk to and what to say. The bigger the event, the more awkward you will find me. Until it is an event in it’s thousands, like tens of thousands. Then I float away in the midst of the crowd and love to be carried along.
We live at the beach, but for many years (like over a decade) I hated the beach. I have had to make peace with the beach and it took forever. One of my closest friends died at the beach when I was twenty one and it took years for me to recover. I have never been to the beach where he passed. Ever, and I’m pretty sure I never will.
I have a deep hunger for India, but I have never been there or know anyone there. I dream of travelling there and working, helping people to discover creativity and innovation. Help people discover their immense worth. Somedays from the minute I wake up, till the moment I close my eyes, I dream of distant far of places. This dream feels further away from becoming a reality than ever before in my life.
I love corn. One day after working hard in the slum of Thailand, I was completely overwhelmed from leading a team of creatives running a day camp for children, that I sat despondent just wanting to go home. Wanting to be as far away from that slum as possible. My husband (he was my boyfriend at that stage) went and bought me a corn on the cob and I started to cry. The corn made me feel like home. It made me remember Sunday roasts and corn fields of New Zealand. That one simple act of compassion, made me fall in love with him endlessly.
This is me. In less than five hundred short words.
I am awkward,
I am insecure,
I am brave,
I am colourful,
I am unique,
I am unsure,
I care way to deeply,
I am loyal to the core,
I hunger and dream of a generation who will rise up and advocate for the poor,
I sometimes cannot breathe because I am so invested in an idea and I have to give birth to it,
I am deeply spiritual,
I think way too much,
I hunger and thirst for righteousness,
I believe in love without borders, race, gender or religion,
I struggle with change, but also thrive in the midst of it,
I like to watch a television series, episode upon episode, day upon day, until it is finished,
I really suck at unresolved conflict,
I try desperately to please people,
I like to be alone but I love the company of a friend.
Who are you?
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Loved this Amanda, wow.
The world is a far better place because of you! Thank you for being the you – you are.
Thanks so much Jennie I appreciate you too.