Come Closer; chapter four braving the wilderness

“I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because the sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain.” James A Baldwin This time last Monday I was sobbing in my car at school. The pressure of my pending new book release, a broken car Read more about Come Closer; chapter four braving the wilderness[…]

When life is brutiful and you are unsure whether remaining in the present is a good thing.

The flowers I bought myself last week are wilting and lately even coffee doesn’t bring the satisfaction it once did. As I sit here to write, my two-year-old has her arms crossed and is shouting “I have juice Mummy, I have JUICE!” Considering she has already consumed two glasses this morning, my soft and consistent no Read more about When life is brutiful and you are unsure whether remaining in the present is a good thing.[…]

The aftermath of a speeding fine and running on empty

I’ve just sat down in a cafe, waiting for a client with the shame that only one thing can induce. The flash of a speed camera. I’m normally the kind of person who intentionally drives slowly. This morning as I rushed my littles to school, my fuel tank was on empty and I was listing Read more about The aftermath of a speeding fine and running on empty[…]

The day I realised my career could have ruined my family

It was a humid, salty Saturday and we had booked in a tradesman to finish the renovation of our bathroom. We laid in late, chatting about the changes that were about to come in our lives as we waited expectantly for our first born to arrive. It was 8am and my waters suddenly broke. Three Read more about The day I realised my career could have ruined my family[…]

Realising that I do not have to be good.

You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile the world goes on. Read more about Realising that I do not have to be good.[…]

Learning that embarrassment is my own worst enemy

Last night I rumbled and wrestled, hardly sleeping the whole night long. It was like I was fighting a battle in my sleep, with enemies such as shame, embarrassment and vulnerability. I’ll let you in on a little secret after last weeks post about my Hangry Bear, I haven’t posted here, I hadn’t read my Read more about Learning that embarrassment is my own worst enemy[…]

those childhood memories that ruin our creativity

Every time I try to diet, go raw, eliminate sugar, go dairy free, gluten free or paleo, the worst result of my efforts is what I like to term my “Hangry Bear”. One day I am focussed, motivated and determined, next minute I want to tear the head off any person that is in my Read more about those childhood memories that ruin our creativity[…]