The wheels have started to fall off our baby bubble and the hard parts have begun to set in.
Our two year old, who goes to sleep normally within a reasonable amount of time and sleeps a solid night, has decided whatever is happening everywhere else in the house but his bedroom is the party he has missed the invite to.
Our newborn who was sleeping 18 hrs a day and smiling softly as she slept has begun to wake up.
Which equals more upset tummy’s.
Our week has rolled out with highs and lows, but we are determined to soak up the moments whilst my body builder is home from work and enjoy even the sleeplessness of a newborn.
Whoever said ‘Sleep like a baby?’ obviously never tried to fit a toddler, a newborn, a body builder and a creative into a 1970’s beachside shack.
I saw this quote this week and it made me smile. (In fact I giggled a little bit, it felt like a prophetic statement of my now.)
As a child, whenever a crayon broke, I would throw it away with disgust, needing the perfection of the moment to create my latest design.
As an adult I have learnt that even broken crayons colour. In fact there are no perfect crayons sitting at any of my coffee tables or dinner tables, every adult I meet has a story that has defined them.
Is there a part of your life right now, that you are missing moments of beauty and creativity because your crayons are a little cracked?
Are you waiting for that perfect moment to start enjoying a season, without realising the colour and beauty is accessible if you just celebrate your now?
Our week has been a little broken.
Moments of cross words, sore knees, broken bodies, tired eye lids, long sips of coffee but honestly it has been filled with moments of beauty and divine inspiration.
Our two week old went for her first walk on the beach.
Our toddler discovered his shadow for the first time and said goodbye to it and then realised with absolute surprise that his shadow was following him.
The series here on Capture life has been really moving me, with inspiration from my friends all over Australia.
My body builder fixed a pair of curtains in our shack, that have been annoying us for over two years.
As we start to acknowledge the colour and beauty, we start to forget that the utensils we are writing with are a little bent.
If you feel like all your colours are fading and your crayons are bending, just take some time to acknowledge the beauty and colour and suddenly it won’t matter anymore.
A scripture has been floating around my head this week;
Psalm 18: 19
He brought me out to a wide-open place.
He rescued me because he was pleased with me.
I realised this week, that the last few months of my pregnancy, I hadn’t gone outside very often and I had spent a lot of time inside. It was winter, I was exhausted with a two year old and my everyday tasks.
We walked the beach this week in the midst of very tired eyes and sore bodies, the winter sun beamed strongly on our shoulders, our toddler ran along the beach immersing himself in the moment, we held hands and our newborn swung softly in the carrier on my husbands chest.
It felt like a very wide open space.
The brokenness of the season felt as far away in that moment as the distant ocean we were soaking our senses in.
Somedays we need to simply walk ourselves into a wide open space and feel the release from the heaviness of the season, allowing the colour to rise in our hearts.
Broken crayons still colour my friend.
Speak next sunday
(Enjoy my friends each day between now and then.)
4 thoughts on “broken crayons”
Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never be broken.
Love this Amanda…feel like I must colour life with a few broken crayons..thanks for sharing, and all the best colouring this week for you and your little family!!!
Thanks so much Jeanette. The end of the week was really wonderful.