Lately I feel like hiding, not out of shame or brokenness, just because I feel like something deep is happening in my world and I don’t want to share it with anyone.
Have you ever had seasons like this?
Seasons where you just want to hide away and dwell in a safe place.
Seasons where you feel like playing hide and seek, but truly don’t want to be found.
I threw out a quick quote to a friend the other day, but as I spoke it I felt like words I have heard thousands of times before came alive in my heart once again.
“Do not despise the day of small beginnings.” Zechariah 4: 10
I have been saying to myself, do not despise these days of hiddenness. Long mornings covered in food, toys thrown around the floor, tantrums screaming. It is in this season of hiddenness that my character is being stretched, deepened and grown.
Seasons come and go, seasons change and when we are bold enough to dig deep and strengthen our character, the purpose for which we were designed shines through. Like a diamond in the rough.
“The greatest and most powerful revolutions often start very quietly, hidden in the shadows. Remember that.” Richelle Mead
These seasons help us to seek.
These times dig wells of resource that fill with water to sustain us in seasons of drought.
These places where we dwell, show our character and strength, to walk slowly through times where we are unsure of what tomorrow will bring.
“Every big castle was once started with a single block; despise no small beginnings. A little step taken every day builds up the hope of greater accomplishments. Do something every day!” Israelmore Ayivor
Our world celebrates a now culture but it does not commend character.
So often I watch someone declaring something they believe in yet their comments and actions reveal truly who they are.
I kind of think maybe they didn’t allow the hidden times to shape them.
Maybe they wanted to escape those moments.
Maybe they were given a spotlight that didn’t hold them accountable to their character.
Maybe they got impatient and didn’t feel the depth of the season that was forming them.
Purpose is built in quiet.
It is not given in the spotlight of applause.
I am not interested in success. I am motivated by contribution.
My life will not be measured by how many people clap and put me on a pedestal, my life is measured by character, obedience and accountability.
Whether I see this in my today or tomorrow, I am learning to love the secret place.
The seeking place.
A warm, sense of knowing that I am exactly where I am meant to be, learning about who I am becoming, shaped by hard decisions not opportunities.