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my reflection on the day I spent with Schapelle Corby

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Our family are regular holiday makers on the island of Bali. The longer we visit there, the more we realise that we know nothing about the rules of the land and the chaotic nature of their legal system.

We have been holidaying in Indonesia for over 25 years as a family, my dad has a villa there. Even today we are just as confused when we visit, as I remember when I was a 10 year old driving through the streets, bemused by the Bimo’s, people yelling Jiggy-Jig and the incessant offerings of marijuana, speed and viagra. As much as we are often overwhelmed at the chaos, we are addicted to it’s offerings. We love the people, it’s raw craziness and our unforgettable memories.

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About 7 years ago, whilst holidaying in Kuta, I decided spontaneously that I wanted to go meet, convicted drug smuggler Schapelle Corby. I didn’t have any strong opinions about her conviction, I was just a 20something woman, who was the same age as this beautiful girl from Australia. I had followed her story keenly, ever since the story broke on the 27 May 2005.

What propelled my interest on this particular trip, was that I was staying next door to the hotel that the Bali nine were arrested in. It was during this holiday that Schapelle and their plight was fresh on our lips.

My sister and I decided one cool morning to go to Kerobokan Prison and just see what happened. We had no motive other than wanting to hopefully encourage someone who was in the most appalling situation. Whether guilty or not, she was in hell.

We packed up a bag of goods, shower lotions, soaps, magazines, creating a little package of love from girls aware of the crazy situation. I put one of my books in my package for her, hoping some little piece of inspiration would arise in this crazy place. Just simple girly things. At the least if we couldn’t get into the prison, we decided we would leave the package for her and believe for the best.

We hired a Bimo and drove to the jail not knowing what to expect and to our absolute terror, the guard we meet at the front door said, you give me a bribe and I will let you in. It was that simple. (Apparently it is no where near as simple anymore, because of all the people that have taken advantage of this old system and gone in with agenda and malice.)

With our bribe paid and our mobile phones, money and valuables taken off us, we waited until a male guard with a gun came towards us and led us into the main area of the prison. We were terrified and excited all in the same breath.

On the other side of the prison walls, I starkly remember bright white tiles that were covered in mould, dirt and disease. I remember walking past other prisoners in their cells. I could only describe their holdings as small shower type rooms, with a dirty mattress on the floor and little spatterings of newspaper articles, pictures and pencil-drawn love drawn on the walls to try and make their living hell, home.

Then we walked into a big holding yard, an outside recreation type of area. This outdoor yard had no outdoor settings or places of rest and relaxation, that usually can be found in Bali hotels. It was black dirt, with patches of weeds, with rubbish and squalor.

We were then led past Schapelle’s prison cell and she was let out by the guard and we together walked into a larger holding area. When we came to this meeting type of room we were instructed to sit on the floor and there Schapelle Corby sat with us and meet these random Aussie girls.

Just a group of girls, from the same country, sitting on the floor, legs crossed in a circle, talking and exchanging stories.

As we sat on the floor, with cockroaches running past, we gave her a little package of love and we said we hoped we could help or comfort her in some way.

I am not sure whether our visit helped or hindered, but our heart was to sit in the midst of her suffering and just listen. To visit as Australian women, aware of her hell, but completely unaware of what it meant to live under such scrutiny and pain. We simply chatted, prayed, listened and hoped for better days.

The conditions of the prison appalled me.

I walked away holding my breath, aware that one silly decision, or one act of malice, I too was one step away from a life curve ball that irrevocably changed me forever.

I didn’t walk away passionately saying she has been wronged.

At the same time I didn’t walk away in prejudice saying she is guilty.

I came away completly overwhelmed at the dire situation of this dear woman who was the same age as me.

I walked away knowing she was just a girl, sitting in a dirty prison cell, surrounded by dirty, angry prison guards, who deserved dignity.

Dignity that every human being deserves, whether guilty as charged or not.

Dignity that every person deserves to live out their sentence in peace.

Today as I watch the media scrum gather again for their piece of meat, for their story, for their bit of grit, I have one simple prayer.

Lord, please bring her peace.

The masses please her bring dignity.

No matter your opinion every person deserves peace and dignity.

On mass our human kind can be so cruel.

Leave her alone.

You’ve had your meal and you nearly broke her.

Let her live now in peace

Hoping

Amanda

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regret

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I made this quote montage yesterday for another online network I am a part of Kinwomen. This quote has haunted me ever since. It is powerful.

The revelation I have been getting from this quote is about regret.

How often do we spend our days trying to change, manipulate and make pretty our ugly moments?

Rather than changing the core reason why those low points surfaced anyway.

Imagine if we put more effort into character development, rather than crisis management and public relations.

At the end of my days, I want to be known for my character.

That I am changing.

That I am growing.

I disagree with the old wives tale that says ‘A leopard can’t change its spots.’

I understand where it has come from, because many times I watch and yes some people don’t learn from their disasters.

There are some who do though,

There are those who grow.

There are those who open their lives with accountability and humility.

Allowing friends to help and shape.

Allowing God to mould and design.

Letting go with humility of the moments we got it wrong and learning from them and changing for the better.

My life is far from perfect, but my desire is to make the whole beautiful and learn from the ugly.

How about you?

A

 

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far and away

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(artwork by Andrea Howey)

Today my dear friend that I wrote about here she is honestly one of the most faithful and inspiring people you will ever meet. Today is the day that we now fight for her and her baby with purpose.

I know today will be a distracted one.

I start the first day of my creative internships today, but my heart and thoughts will be overseas.

praying

It is one of the most awful feelings to be far and away.

So what can you do in these times?

Pray,

Hope,

Believe,

Trust,

Fight for the future.

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Speak tomorrow

Amanda

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30 days

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I often have people ask; How did you write your first book. ‘Capture 30 days of inspiration.’

The truth is I decided one day in December and then on the 1st of January I wrote a chapter everyday for 3o days.

It was as simple as that.

I asked a friend to take a photo every day for the 30 days and then the project began.

Then book 2, in October a few years later, I did the same. Half in Australia, Half in Thailand. Exploring the concept of poverty and creativity.

That was how this website and my writing obsession began.

In 30 days.

I didn’t go to a conference and get the t-shirt and the hat.

I didn’t go to a writers workshop and get all the ins and outs.

I just had a go.

My first book was published in 2007 and a few years later the whole 30 day concept became a FAD. (Not one that I started but the same principle anyways)

If you repetitively do the same thing for a whole month, say 30 days, the new habit will stick. Every day. Not one missed. Repetition.

This year I have committed to writing on this blog and drawing in my visual diary every day. 365 days.

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Committing to a whole year for the #inspire14 project might be too overwhelming but what about one month.

Break it down even more, what about 30 days.

In 2009, Matt Cutts, an American engineer who works for Google, felt he was ”stuck in a rut”, so he set himself a 30-day challenge. He vowed to walk 10,000 steps every day for a month – and he accomplished it.

”It turns out, 30 days is just about the right amount of time to add a new habit or subtract one,” Cutts says. ”I noticed, as I started to do harder challenges, that my self-confidence grew. I went from a desk-dwelling computer nerd to the kind of guy who bikes to work for fun.” (reference: this Article)

Here is his 3 minute TED talk: Have a watch, I think you will be inspired.

What can you commit to for the month of March?

30 days.

Imagine.

Amanda

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Sore feet and happy heart

20140203-210355.jpgDay one of my new health regime, Day 34 of my #inspire14 project  and I sit here with very sore feet and a happy heart.

Watching all the pictures of the little ones going off to school today made me smile, but I felt like I had my own first day today, getting back on the exercise/ healthy eating wagon.

Why does it take so much effort to do the things that make a massive difference?

When I exercise, I feel amazing after.

When I eat well, I feel clearer and more inspired.

Entropy happens though and those chips at my friends house, the bar of chocolate, the lure of the couch, they  all win the battle.

I know it is only day one but I am hoping the sore feet and the happy heart last.

What is it that you have been putting off?

What do you need to live inspired in 2014?

Write it below and maybe this first step will lead you towards accountability and the first baby step towards making the change tomorrow.

Amanda