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Sky through clouds

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The last few days have seen a welcome change of weather in our part of town. A little grey, a little cloudy, a little colder and just a little more like winter.

I spent the day in the city with three different friends (two in this photo) who are going through their own journeys of healing and recovery. One could say winter seasons of challenge and courage.

Whilst driving from hospital to home to respite centre, I was listening to an album given to me on Monday night and I was so moved by the words of a song.

Don’t Be Afraid from beautiful new album from Cate Williams ‘The Dance of Life’

Don’t be afraid, though the world has shut it’s ears to your cry and you feel like you want to die, come over here and let Me heal your broken heart and you’ll no longer fear I’m here to rescue you. I’ll carry you through the night time and the crazy storm. Pick you up, so your feet don’t touch those angry thorns and I’ll hold you when every anchor falls away. Cause a love like this will help you see the sky through the clouds.

As I sung and played this song on repeat I was so overwhelmed at the journey’s of many people in my life at the moment.  I found such perspective in my own battles whilst thinking about the journey of faith they are each on, step by step they are trusting for healing and recovery.

Little by little

Step by step

Moment by moment

Brave decision after brave decision.

Despite the struggle all of them are choosing to see sky through clouds.

Amidst trouble and pain, the stories, the laughter, the resounding echo of faith that surrounded all of their speech.

It brings great perspective to me, to watch people who are grappling with difficult times step out and believe that change and new days are ahead.

People who are in the midst of crazy storms, that still their hearts and lives and look for the sky through the clouds. (there is a video link on this photo of Cate Williams below with another song from her latest album ‘Hold the Keys’).

cate

Rescue

Recovery

Beauty

Pain

Peace

Faith

Trust

Are you struggling to see the beautiful blue promise of sky through the dark, grey, rolling clouds?

It is okay, but despite the pain, despite the diagnosis, despite the clouds, the sky is awaiting to breakthrough and bring you into a new day and season.

He awaits

He promises

He guides you home.

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Your struggle

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In the land of all things creative, when you are struggling to find the answer, keep looking.

I need to be completely honest here.

I did not even write one word for my next book ‘Yestember‘ in the month of March.

I read.

I grappled.

I thought.

I talked.

I listened.

But nothing on paper.

I collected other peoples stories (of which I am still needing 8 more)…

But I didn’t even write an opening sentence.

I found quotes.

I started a branding.

But no words.

See the problem I have, is that I am not interested in writing another cliche line, that disappoints and confuses those who are single.

I am not interested in publishing something that doesn’t help.

When I was single and especially over 30, I read some of the most appalling books, that I was so desperate to get answers from.

I don’t want to produce answers, I want to provoke questions.

I don’t want to give a 3 point sermon that frustrates and belittles.

I don’t even want to minimise or maximise the season.

I am trusting the struggle right now.

No struggle = no thought.

So essentially I failed March inspired majorly.

Like not even one word after 30 days.

But I am trusting the struggle and staying in this uncomfortable place.

What struggle are you having to produce something great?

Stay in that place of restlessness until you breakthrough to that new place of promise.

Speak tomorrow.

Struggle town.

Amanda

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Find where you belong

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I am home fresh from our Sparc gathering in Perth. The night is all about creative people networking and sharing stories and finding a place to belong.

A tribe,

A gang,

A pack.

As creatives as much as we need time by ourselves to wrestle and play with fresh ideas, we also need to step away from our computers (keyboards, instruments, cameras, paint brushes) and go and sit with people of the same ilk.

To be encouraged,

To feel loved,

To find a place to belong.

I love this Brene Brown quote, it’s is everything that as a creative I struggle with.

My imperfection and struggle.

But I truly believe every person is worthy of love and belonging.

Everyone.

Even when it hasn’t gone to plan.

Even when we have stuffed up relationship.

Even when we are so introverted walking into a room is the pits.

Everyone.

Thanks to all the brave people who gave tonight a go.

I hope you found someone a little more like you and are one step closer to forming a creative gang.

Speak tomorrow

A

 

 

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What he is not…

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On the news whilst driving away this weekend, I heard a young girl being interviewed about a play she is performing in Margaret River, Perth.

The students are preparing for their performance of The Laramie Project, a piece depicting Matthew Shepard, a gay high school student in the US who was bashed to death over his sexuality in the late 90s.

The unfortunate part of this broadcast is these high school students have caught the attention of Westboro Baptist, a hate group from the United States of America.

This group will be traveling 17,000kms to picket a high school drama play and have been twitter hounding the students about their disgust.

I am appalled.

On behalf of anyone who is a follower of Jesus, I am sorry.

People who use their vitriolic stances to condemn and accuse others are in the wrong just as much as anyone or anything they are picketing about.

I am so over people making judgements, accusations, statements, debates and hard lines stances about issues that are in no way definitive in the bible.

The words of Jesus don’t even come close to excusing any of the behavior that is touted as encouraging accountability and change management.

The funniest part of this whole saga, is how the students responded to the hate mail from this supposed church.

‘thanks for the promotion of our show!’

This is who Jesus is…

Now when he saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to Him,

2and He began to teach them, saying:

3Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

4Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

5Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

6Blessed are those who hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they will be filled.

7Blessed are the merciful, for they shall be shown mercy.

8Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

9Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the sons of God.

10Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.

12Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

What he is not…

Someone who condemns, accuses, shouts hate and shame.

In fact he himself said to a woman who was about to be stoned to death for having an affair…

‘He who is without sin, throw the first stone.’

And every single person walked away.

Then he said this

‘I do not condemn you, now go and sin no more.’

Whether you frequently picket young high schoolers plays or not, whether you condemn people with your words and your speeches behind closed doors.

Please do not tell people He is something, that He very much is not…

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Retreating

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I hurriedly packed my car, with little or no planning. Not because the weekend away was unplanned but life as I knew it creeped up on me and I found myself unprepared for what was to unfold.

Maybe that was the best possible way to rip this adventurous heart away from the necessity and responsibilities of motherhood and married life.

I threw my basket of crochet, my laptop, a couple of hoodies and a small selection of toiletries on the front seat. A notebook, a gaggle of pens, some scarfs and walking shoes were my companions.

As I drove away from my house, my very unplanned luggage taunted me, what if you have forgotten something?

Then my mature, adventurous personality took over and said ‘it doesn’t matter if you are in the same clothes for three days, you are retreating.’

I am in an undisclosed location, hours away from home, with two of my best friends.

We left early yesterday morning and drove for hours, to a holiday house on the beach and my heart is overwhelmed.

Countless of cups of teas and coffee later, two blocks of chocolate, a bottomless plate of grapes, cheese, nuts, cold meats and biscuits remains ever filled.

Our one goal.

To write.

Last night we opened up our hearts and talked, till we had no words left.

No social media.

No Television (although the football found it’s way to the background, as one of us is sports mad)

No children.

No husbands.

No expectations.

In our pjs at 6pm and we just talked.

We saved the world, we saved ourselves, we talked openly about what confuses us about people and plans and opportunity.

We encouraged.

We listened.

We preached.

We planned.

Today we woke up slowly and started the conversation again.

One with no boundaries, no judgement and more cups of tea.

Then a moment came, where we were all ready to write.

And that is where we are all located right now.

We need to create space, priority and place to write and process in our busy lives.

We need to create this.

As writers.

As creatives.

As innovators.

It is no one else’s responsibility to create this but your own.

If you need space, make it happen.

I can promise you, if you have taken time to read this far, you are longing for space.

Plan a retreat sometime soon.

Speak tomorrow

Amanda